Me and Mr. Bartender :) (Taken with instagram)

jealousy and bitterness?

I hate facebook and social networking websites sometimes. You get bored and you go to people’s pages and stalk their pictures. Then you get depressed because their life always seems so much better than yours. Look at the bars they’re going to, the nice fancy events or crazy adventures these people are embarking on. Then you think, man what the hell am I doing with my life? Why can’t I dress nice like her? Why don’t I have her body? Why is she so super fricking pretty and super fricking awesome at life?

Maybe this next part isn’t true but it certainly is something that helps me get through feeling bitter about my own life and jealous of other’s lives. What you see on pictures is only what’s on the outside. You have no idea how these people are feeling inside. You have no idea what kind of hardship they are going through in their world that you don’t really know. You’re just making a judgement based on the cover from what you see on facebook.

So why is it that I can’t stop myself from comparing myself to other people? Why is it that people as a whole often like to compare themselves then make themselves feel inadequate and not good enough? Maybe it’s just human nature to be that way.

But you know what? Life is a gift on its own. People are constantly in a pursuit of adventures and looking for fulfillment through doing anything and everything they can because YOLO. The “motto” is that you only live once so live it up because you could die tomorrow. I guess that’s a logical statement. But I realized that sometimes people are too busy “pursuing” and “looking” for these experiences that will give them fulfillment in their life and make their life complete in case they don’t wake up tomorrow that they overlook the most essential components of the human soul like love, kindness, and appreciation.

Do we really deserve that much greatness and goodness like we think we do? Shouldn’t what you have in your life be enough? You make due with what God give you. God knows what you deserve. You don’t. You think you do but you probably don’t. Life’s not short at all. Life’s really long and wonderful if you actually stop once in a while and count each breath you take as a blessing. And with this mentality is how you attain peace of self.

Or maybe this was a whole load of bullshit that I made up in own my mind to justify why I don’t feel the way I want to feel.. hahahahah mind fucking you and myself.

Hi baby.. I don’t know if you will see this. It’s really not for your eyes. It’s really just for my own reflection. We didn’t get a picture yesterday. We didn’t end your 21st birthday on a good note either. And for that, I’m truly sorry. But I know we’ll get passed this but I don’t know how to read your mind. And I know you can let things go easily. But I don’t expect you to when it was mainly my fault that we didn’t end it well. Instead of just telling you what was bothering me, I took it out on you in a wrong way. And then I did things that weren’t too mature. I don’t know why you love me. I don’t really know why I love you either. We just kind of do. I value you. I want to validate that statement to you through everything that I do. Maybe it will never be smooth sailing when it comes to me and you. Maybe we’ll always get on each other’s nerves. And maybe this love is crazy, stupid, and blind. But I see clearly now what I didn’t see before. I wish for the romantic things that happen in the movie. But to answer your inquiry about something that we have that other couples don’t and wish they do is that our love is genuine, eternal, and very intense. People cheat like it’s nothing and don’t even feel bad afterwards. I don’t know how they can do that. I couldn’t and I know you couldn’t either. Anyway, I love you with all my heart and I hope you can have a good day today without anyone or anything ruining it. And I’ll talk to you soon, I hope. This is us exactly a year ago on your 20th birthday. Happy Birthday babe. <3

9gag:

I bought a dog once…

Laugh. My. Fucking. Ass. Off

here goes…

LIFE IS TAKING A LITTLE BIT OF A TOLL.

I’M A DRAMA QUEEN SO I BLOW SHIT OUT OF PROPORTION 70% OUT OF THE TIME.

I DON’T KNOW WHEN TO STOP SCREAMING. IF I START A SHOUTING MATCH AND THE OTHER PERSON DON’T WANNA CALM THE FUCK DOWN. IT’S OVER. THAT’LL BE IT. I WILL KEEP YELLING UNTIL I GET MY POINT ACROSS ESPECIALLY IF I KNOW I’M RIGHT.

I PUT MYSELF BEFORE OTHERS A LOT.

BUT THEN AT THE SAME TIME, I PUT OTHERS BEFORE MYSELF A LOT.

IT’S HARD TO EXPLAIN

Life’s crazy. Sometimes I feel like I’m a bit crazy.

Is there anybody out there that can understand me?

ohmyasian:

(via speedM)

2618. Salmon Yakitori. Mmmm…. doesn’t this look so delicious! YAY salmon. 

OMG YUMMMMM!!

(Source: anditslove)

I want corsetty stuff like this!!!

(Source: stairmastertoheaven, via prettymajorpop)

Omg me and Bon are two peas in a pod! (Taken with instagram)

Alan!! Alan!! Alan!! That’s not Alan, that’s Steve! Steve!! Steve!! Steve!! (Taken with instagram)

Been craving one for days!! And Steezy got one for me! So hype! (Taken with instagram)

The difference between bees and wasps.

Golfing it up! (Taken with instagram)

prettyfoods:

Snickerdoodle Ice Cream (via Our Best Bites)

I’m definitely PMS-ing. Every single picture of sweets I’ve seen on tumblr so far. I’m salivating.. SMH

This is why I like dogs so much better than cats!! They’re too silly

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